_my love for you;

Thursday, May 31, 2007

Recieved a call from Fitness First a few days back telling me that i get a free session for ex members to their gym. I ask Di to accompany me there. It's at Millenia Walk.
As soon as we reached there, we were like excited for sure. Hahaha. First time went to gym with Di. We spent more then an hour there exercising and wash eye(just kidding). We were like aliens there cause as we walk out from the ladies changing room, the instructors were looking at us like as if we have tails down on our backs.
Anyway, we did went in the sauna and then had a cool shower. Oh boy, the shower was great. The cold water that runs out through the shower somehow makes me feel like im bathing in a waterfall. Nice. Di and i had a long shower just to enjoy the feel of it.
I was thinking of meeting Ily at Coffee Bean downstairs just to drop by and say hello and who knows i'll get another freebie. =) But too bad. Ily was still at home. He's working in the afternoon. So by the time he came to work i'll be like on my way home. No luck.
So due to that we headed to Suntec. Di wanted to make use of her $10 voucher at Haaegen-Dazs. After enjoy sharing ice cream with Di we headed home.
Actually, it was still early. Di wanted to go to Fareast but im sorry Di. I have to say no due to the calls i recieved from my mum a few times asking me when will i be coming home. She's being so hot up. Thanks to my "wonderful" and "helpful" sis that i've got.

-Sign Off @ 8:33 PM :)

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

I just dont understand how people can live with owing others money. Worst case was to cheat their money away. How can they have this kind of heart to take peoples' money and just enjoy spending it. Haiz.
Im kind of disappointed with a few people. Although the amount might be small but for me it's still money and i can use that while waiting to get a job.
(memang tak ada rezeki agaknya...)
But i really hope to still get that money...But if that jerk were to give me back my money, it would be much better.
But i know, it wont happen and it never will.
=(

-Sign Off @ 5:33 PM :)

Visit hubby at his place yesterday. He's having 2 days MC due to a major headache that he had been having for the past few days. Well, feeling kind of guilty for his misery in the head. It's all because of me right??
Anyway, went to Mak Su's house to look at some old pictures of u and the other kins of yours. U're such a majestic little boy huh. U also got that naughty boy look when u were little. Hahahah... Cute!
**Hubby, dont forget to consume your medicine regularly ya. Must take care of your health u know.
Ouh, about what my mum said about me yesterday...dont take it to heart ya. I know my mum. She must have said that out of anger. She's sick and tired of certain things. But dont worry. We're both fine now. Nothing serius though.

-Sign Off @ 10:53 AM :)

Sunday, May 27, 2007

Had a bad sleep last night. Sleep around 230am and i woke up at 330am. Dont know why.. I did sleep back but then again i woke up half an hour later. And my mum woke me up at 745am.

I reached home around 130am. Doing my business plan at hubby's house as he wanted his sis to help me with it. Im actually feeling kind of shy cause im lacking of brain juice. Do u get what i meant? After having irregular lessons and sitting at home doing just nothing, i think my brain went dead.
Dang! That sounds bad. I've forgotten most of the things. And i get his sis to explain slowly to me most of the things. Aaaarrr...so paiseh. And my brain was like errrr...
loading||||||||10%|||||||||12%|||||||15%(slow like hell!)
Im so envy of her. Wish i have a brain like yours kak. =) That will be heavenfor me.
But anyway, thanks alot kak. I'll continue with it and i'll see u again around next week aight.

-Sign Off @ 10:16 AM :)

Thursday, May 24, 2007

Just came back from meeting hubby.
I was feeling so intoxicated today that i can drive the car to pick hubby up from work. Im happy to do that. It's my first time picking hubby up from his camp.
It's nice to see u today. Although i lost my way there but it doesnt matter. When finally i get to find my way and reached your camp i was damn happy. More than happy.
Drop two of your friends at Boon Lay bus interchange and drop Bump near his house then both of us went for dinner at Kopitiam. Seriously i've no appetite to eat today but i force myself to eat.
After that went to hubby's house for a while. Talk to his mother and father.

I really love u hubby.
When u ask me whether can i imagine my life without u around, i was like no way. It wont happen. And i make sure it wont happen.
I cant imagine that.

-Sign Off @ 10:23 PM :)

Now...I feel like a jerk.
Worst than a jerk.
I realised how selfish i am to just think about myself and hurt u so badly.
I took things for granted.
How can i be so mean????
Punished me if u want to but just dont leave me.
I know its going to be hell of a hard time to gain your trust back but please.. Trust me and i'll prove u that whatever things stated in there were wrong.
It came out of anger.
I hate myself now. I really hated myself.
I cant forgive myself if u were to leave me.

-Sign Off @ 7:34 AM :)

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

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To my dearest hubby,
Im very, very sorry to what i've done just now. Im so sorry. It's just a sudden reaction. I didnt believe that i reacted that way to u. I really regret. Please forgive me. If i could turn back time, i wouldnt be reacted that way to u. But i cant. Damage had been done and all i can say is sorry and promise to u that i wont do that again. Please dont change just because of my mistake. Anyway, thanks for dropping by and bring some stuff. I appreciated it so much and im sorry cause i spoilt it right? Again, im sorry. I think im being selfish.

-Sign Off @ 7:00 PM :)

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Hey...thanks for the birthday invitation ya.
And Zira girl, so sorry for being late. It's so sweet of u to wait for us to cut your birthday cake. So sorry ya.

Thanks hubby for accompanying me to Zira's house. Told u it's ok. I understand u just came back from swimming and its kind of rushing for u. For what u did yesterday??? I'll appreciated it so much.
*Hugz

Going home time, we took 187 to Bukit Batok. What happened was that we left Sam still inside the bus after we alighted. Not on purpose i swear. Non of us know actually. He was sitting infront and the rest of us was right at the back. Maybe he didnt see us alighted cause we took the long bus. Heheheh.
Poor Sam. He alighted at the next stop only after i called him and told him to do so.
After that, hubby and i went to Westmall to watch Blades of Glory. Very funny movie and i cant stop laughing while watching it. Great show i must say.
Hubby went to my place and 5 of us(my bro, my sis, her boyfriend, hubby and i) played Bingo till 2 am. Believe that? Hahahah.
It's because Azhari, my sis's boyfriend keeps on winning and so feeling unsatisfied i want to play till i win. And yes i did at the very last game. Yey!
Hahahah.. Had a great time.

-Sign Off @ 12:52 PM :)

Friday, May 18, 2007

People, people, people.
I dont understand why.
Just like myself, i care about how i look.
Really concern about my weight.
But not to the extend to starve myself or vomit out the food that i've eaten.
I want to have good and nice body and at the same time healthy.
I dont want to have eating disorder or any other sort of sickness.
I care for this one person but for certain reason i dont want to put that person's name.
Just one to tell that one person, dont starve yourself and force vomit out the food u've eaten. That will make u sick. I care for u so much so please...dont.
Dont expect people to love u when u yourself dont love your ownself.

-Sign Off @ 11:10 PM :)

To Zira...
Happy Birthday gurl..
May got bless u..
Most importantly, pass your examination with flying colors.
See u tomorrow at your birthday party aightz.
=) Wweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..

-Sign Off @ 8:48 PM :)

Thursday, May 17, 2007

Happy Birthday to Zizie!
Hey...Wish u all the best in everything u do aight.
May Allah bless u. Amin.
Oh ya Zi, don't forget about tomorrow ya.
Meet u at Clementi MRT station around 915am to 930am. Don't be late. =)

Thought of going to the library today but it's raining heavily and so i decided to stay indoor. Haiz... Still preparing short scripts for P1 and P2.
Stressing. Very.
Currently, still doing my business plan. Hahahah. What the hell Fizah. U're so slow. Worst than a snail. My brain does'nt seem to be working well. Brain booster??? Need that. Hahahah.

-Sign Off @ 4:12 PM :)

NIGHTMARE:
Had a bad dream last night.
I dreamt that my scalp turns red and it itch like hell. Then, when i look at the mirror my hair started to drop alot and i can see bald patch here and there.
Aaaarrrr!!! I can go crazy.
Maybe im too carried away by the amount of hair that i've lost.
I told my mum about my dream and
Mum told me maybe due to the imbalance of food that i've consumed.
Since im wearing this brace i tend to have difficulties eating certain food.
I eat less vegies than usual.
Ouh God help me.

-Sign Off @ 11:47 AM :)

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

This few days i was'nt feeling like myself.
Something is disturbing me but im not sure what is it. I can't control it.
I tend to feel tired. So restless.
Part of my life suck.
I just don't know what to do.
Sometime, i feel like shouting and at times i feel like breaking down so badly.

To Di, thanks for listening to me and thanks for the advices.
To Liyz, gurl just don't let those stuff disturb u. Just be strong.

-Sign Off @ 4:28 PM :)

Sunday, May 13, 2007

Firstly, i would like to wish my mum a Happy Mother's Day.
Thanks for everything that u have done to me since i was small till now. I know i troubled u alot but u never gave up to make me smile and be there when im in need. I treasured your love, care and concern towards me. Never will i forget your big sacrifices. Cant bear to see those tears running down your cheeks when u are mad at sis. I tried my best to handle her and i'll keep on trying.
Well, not to forget Happy Mother's Day to hubby's mum and also Mak Su.
And to all the mothers out there too.

Yesterday was my last day of my mandarin class. Yey! Got my cert. Although my lesson ended i still need to learn more. My mandarin is not fluent yet.
After class i went to hubby's house to give his mother's birthday gift and also Mak Su's.
Had dinner with them at Teh Tarik then all the way im at his place till 12am.
Thanks to your mum for the rambutan. =)

Anyway, today im just sitting around at home doing nothing. Feeling bored and at the same time feeling a little annoyance towards things that had happened. Mum was mad at sis and out of anger(i guess) she said this, "next time all of u cant be back home late. I'll be locking the door from the inside after 1030pm."
All of us started to grumble and pinpointing each others mistakes.
I cant take it seriously. I dont usually go out. Meet hubby once in a while unlike my bro and sis. And now with this new rules that my mum applied, i really cant accept it.
But i really hope that this will only last for a month or two. If not i'll go crazy. Seriously.

-Sign Off @ 11:10 PM :)

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Hey...It's hubby's mother's birthday today!
So Cik, Happy Birthday!
Semoga panjang umur dan di murahkan rezeki.
Diberikan kesihatan.
Dan semoga bahagia sentiasa disamping keluarga yang tersayang.
Amin.

Sorry for wishing your mum late hubby.
Hhmmm...Busy since morning. Anyway, i just called her. Thought i could see her today when u ask me out for family dinner which is then canceled. I think i'll see her this Saturday. Ok???

After one week break from Malay Speech and Drama class for the primary school kids, we'll be starting again this week. So tomorrow, had to wake up super early cause i'll be taking bus there. Dang! Bro is not teaching them any longer. He's working now. Haiz. Told my mum that i wanted to drive there but she wont allow it as i'll be having class after that.
It's ok then.
I always dream to have my own car but how am i supposed to afford a car on my own where by im still sitting at home with no job.
Haiz.

-Sign Off @ 11:05 PM :)

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

Window shopping for me today but not for a cousin of mine. She was like searching for a bag, a pair of shoe, black jeans, or gosh more like everything. What can i say? She just got her pay. Walking around Vivo City was hell of a tiring day.
I cant remembered actually how many rounds we've been walking in that shopping centre. Hahah...
Finally, she bought a pair of earing, a pair of shoe, black jeans and errm..some stuff from Daiso.
I thought of buying a pair of earing too but...i cant find one which is nice.
Anyway, a sales girl at Diva was attracted to my butterfly pendant and was asking me where i got it from.
Well, although i know where but i smiled and told her it was a gift from my boyfriend. Hhmm...why eh? Hahaha...
Ok...tomorrow morning had my dental appoinment.
Hhhmmm...What colour shall i choose???

-Sign Off @ 10:09 PM :)

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Am i dreaming or what?!

Gosh! I felt like the most luckiest girl right now...

I was in my room just done with my shower. Hubby called and was asking me what am i doing at that moment of time. And a few minutes later, heard the door bell. Thought it was my sis but my mum came in running to my room saying that hubby was at the door. I was like, "what???" Thought he said that he was at home playing game....Hhmp!

Shocked with the surprised visit and also a suprise gift for me.

It's not my birthday nor any special day. None that i can think of.

But im so touched.

Thanks hubby. Thank u very much.

I really love u so much...More than i'll ever be able to tell u hubby...

-Sign Off @ 9:38 PM :)

Sunday, May 06, 2007

Was talking to hubby just now and he was wondering why i was so shy last night during the BBQ when i've already met his family and relatives before. Im still new to the other aunts and uncles of yours. So still feeling shy.
I didnt realised the actual motive of u not taking food for me last night until u told me today. I guess u're right. I shouldnt be acting that way last night. U just wanted me to feel comfortable around them. When u told me that u actually wanted to introduce me to your aunts, i was like....errr... Sorry. I know i was like at one corner or maybe somewhere else. Give me another chance and im sure i'll get used to it. Ok? Another thing, i went there empty handed without any gifts for Kak Emi and Mak Su. Only with the homemade curry puffs from my mum. So paiseh.

-Sign Off @ 3:54 PM :)

Saturday, May 05, 2007

Just came back from class....Helping my mum with some stuff.
Im going to take a shower later and then get ready to Hubby's place. Celebrating his elder sis's and also his aunt's birthday.
Currently not sure who will be there. Whether it's going to be pack or not. Im going there with my sis and Azhari. Well, mum wouldnt want to come down cause she's feeling kinda shy without my dad. My bro and his girlfriend cant make it either. They both have to attent a school camp. Something like that.
Hhhmmm...having trouble finding what to wear. Sigh.
Ok...i better keep my ass going.
If not im going to be late.

-Sign Off @ 4:55 PM :)

Thursday, May 03, 2007

Not going anywhere today. So, staying at home trying to figure out what shall i write in the script. First script, the one for Pestariasi and the second one is for the primary school kids. Haiz. Yesterday, went to meet hubby and Faris at Jurong East Entertainment. Played pool and watch Spiderman 3.
Had a wonderful time last night hubby. =)

-Sign Off @ 5:17 PM :)

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

Been busy lately. Hubby just came back from Brunei. Im so happy(obviously). Im looking forward for that day u know. Anyway, on Saturday itself he accompanied me to watch a play in Ngee Ann Poly which my bro was involved in. Thanks hubby. Really appreciated it so much although i know it's just not your forte and not your interest. Before that we went to buy a gift for one of his friend, Elly. She's having a BBQ near her house at Bukit panjang. So straight after the show we headed there. Saturday was the day that i ate alot. All this while been chatting with Elly in MSN so that day was the first time meeting her. She's tall. Friendly.

Anyway, it's good to see hubby again.
So to spend time with him and together with his family, i agreed to go to Singapore Expo with them. Had fun. Really. =)

And for today, im feeling tired. Just came back home from my aunt house. Didnt have a good rest yet due to helping my mum making some kuih to give my aunt. I still got a script to retype it and sent to Zi. And one more thing, need to prepare for tomorrow's teaching.
Ouh ya, congratz to my bro cause he'll be starting his new job tomorrow. Left with me. Still nothing. Haiz.

-Sign Off @ 10:48 PM :)