_my love for you;

Good-bye my dearest Grandmother..

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

It was a normal Saturday only that there was no drama training. I was excited for the chalet and couldnt wait to be there. The first plan i had was with Zi. We wanted to meet at 1pm at Commonwealth but then the plan changed. Kak Su(Izan's aunt) will be picking me up at about 1pm or 2pm and we will go there.. But then i recieved a phone call from Izan saying that plan changed. He and his aunt will come and pick me up at 5pm at Clementi and then we will go and collect the food. Seriously, i was pissed cause i've already got dress by 1pm. But it's ok. So i already packed my stuff and i sit on the sofa and even took a nap just to kill the time. By 430pm as i wanted to make a move to Clementi again Izan call me saying that the plan again change. By then i felt like shouting. But it's ok im cool. So he said that by 730pm he and kak Su will pick me at my place. If that's the case then im ok.

It was about 615pm when the phone rang. My aunt called and wanted to talk to my mum. Then my mum started crying and keep on asking "are u sure?""Are u sure?" I looked at my mum and asked her what and why. She was shivering. And i heard it was about my grandmother. In my mind, there's only one news that could make her react that way. Death was the answer. And yes, my grandmother pass away. At first my aunt thought she fainted cause she was talking a while ago. And so my day ended up with this tearing incident.

I called Zi and Izan saying that i cant go to the chalet due to this and i started crying. I couldnt hold my tears back anymore cause i, as a grand daughter had done a big mistake for not spending much time while she's still alive. What i did when my family reached there was first go to her room kiss her hand ask her how is she and have she eaten and then went to the living room and watch tv. What kind of grand daughter am i???

My mother, sis and me rushed there. Got to kiss her cold cheek and ask for forgiveness. Tears rolling down my cheeks fast as i look at her body laying there motionless on the bed. What have i done? (keeps on hearing it in my mind.)

I pitied my dad cause he wasnt here in Singapore to see his mother go. He tried his best to get a flight back but he will only reach Singapore at 9pm, Sunday. He must be feeling really sad.

The body was buried on Sunday morning at about 11am. Everybody had not been having enough sleep and didnt have proper meals since on Sat night till Sunday. Feeling tired and restless till today. Tomorrow, we still have prayers to do.

Al-Fatihah
Beloved granmother,
Hajjah Siti Aminah Binte Astawi
07/10/1939 - 26/08/2006
Semoga rohnya ditempatkan bersama orang-orang yang beriman.
Amin.

-Sign Off @ 2:53 PM :)