_my love for you;

-So Sad-

Thursday, June 30, 2005

haiya...im so jealous! yalah...who dont want their face to be in da tv?? i want...
but i've got no luck i guess...i can only wait till actual ndp..

hey im still thinkin abt losing weight...aarrgh! so stress..
i got to get this straight...itz not bcoz of wat mail says..i've already notice it before he open his mouth..well, i dont blame him..what for if itz da fact..

today i tried not to sleep after comin back from sch but cant control my eyes..oh my god...i felt like a pig sey..damn! i have to do somethin..

anyway, i cant wait for tomorrow's practice.. heheh..so excited... =)

-Sign Off @ 1:14 PM :)

\\unwell//

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

hey2...feelin alittle unwell today...haiz...i started class at 10 but im already left home at 7...early?? ya i knoe.. all bcoz im meetin him before sch to pass his CD...he was waitin under my blk this morning...as usual my mum goes to da mosque with a fren of her every monday morning...i was happily goin down da stairs without me knowin tt her fren was waitin downstairs...hahaha...really ah..i was this close u knoe.. anyway...before he come to me, i quickly talk to my mum's fren to give him a signal tt she is my mum's fren...ouh well...i was lucky i guess.. =)

we went to J.E to have breakfast..frankly, i dont usually take heavy breakfast..but he insist me to..so i did... i couldnt finish my food..damn..im kindda blush.. so malu..i felt tt da noodle are getting more n more instead of gettin lesser..

feelin full like hell..he send me to da bus interchange n i took 105 to sch.. i got to meet yat at clementi..he wanted to go to sch together..ended up yat,di,yana n i go to sch together..haha..di was late..n so we came to class about 1/2hr late tt is 1030.. time really travel damn fast..class ends at 1130 n i waited for my parents to pick me up..i have to follow them to JB..boring..coz im alone without my sis..

ouh ya...im pissed with Yus...he's talkin too much CRAP!! i dont mind helpin him downloading songs to his MP3 but he kept sms-ing me asking how has it been doin.. he's so irritating fellow! cant he understand me??? im busy n tire...i need more time..i've told him before hand tt im gonna need more time but he says itz not a prob..but now..it seems da other way right??

-Sign Off @ 1:52 PM :)

-back-

Saturday, June 25, 2005

itz been quite sometime huh i didnt update my post...well itz not tt im bz or what...but im just plain lazy..

i've been thinking lately...not about one thing but a few things... cant believe tt my kakak is gettin married this comin August...i thought she was jokin...but she was serious this time due to certain reason...
hai...ouh well..today class started at 10 but as usual di n me arrived at 1030..lol...da touchin part was tt..we ended at 11 haha...

my baby called me just now n told me tt he's gonna make a 'new art piece'...yeah2 whatever! hhmm..its really up to him...but what i knoe i've done my part..
sometimes i kept thinking am i stupid or what??? am i lacking of general knowledges?? coz it seemed like what he asked me i couldnt answer..damn..at tt particular moment, only God knoes how i feel..

i never get my live straight..i mean as in u knoe get da right person..do da right thing..hai..
i wish tt i have all my $$ back...my happinest..
am i talking crap??? mayb huh...

-Sign Off @ 4:35 AM :)

NDP Practice

Sunday, June 19, 2005

Juz woke up...feelin damn tired after training today... da prob is tt da flooring was slippery and itz not flat at all...do they wnat to kill us or what? i mean u should make a proper flooring not an uneven floor for us to run..crazy!

hai...tomorrw..my parents comin back from their holidays... well...without them i felt like im an adult for once...it was great! u get to do whatever things u want..freedom.. u can cook what ever food..watch tv,sleep,go out.. now i have to get ready to be nag when they are back..

-Sign Off @ 12:25 PM :)

-Helena-

Friday, June 17, 2005

long ago
just like the hearse you die to get in again
we are so far from you
burning on just like the match you strike to incinerate
the lives of everyone you know
and what's the worst you take
from every heart you break
and like the blade you stain
well i've been holding on tonight

what's the worst that i can say?
things are better if i stay
so long and goodnight
so long and goodnight

came a time when every star falls
brought you to tears again
we are the very hurt you sold
and what's the worst you take
from every heart you break
and like the blade you stain
well i've been holding on tonight

whats the worst that i can say
things are better if i stay
so long and goodnight
so long and goodnight
and if you carry on this way
things are better if i stay
so long and goodnight
so long and goodnight

can you hear me?
are you near me?
can we pretend to leave and then
we'll meet again when both our cars collide

what's the worst that i can
things are better if i stay
so long and goodnight
so long and goodnight
and if you carry on this way
things are better if i stay
so long and goodnight
so long and goodnight

-Sign Off @ 1:03 PM :)

-|my parents gone|-

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

early this morning my parents left to go for a holiday in Indonesia..
hmmm..im not sure when they will be home....im feelin kinda sick right now... headaches tt never go away since yesterday...

ok...everything was goin pretty alright when this few days he acted kinda strange...he did msg me as usual but..itz like what i msg him he did reply... not until i call n found outz tt he's with his broz...haiz...tough..
well...u knoe i've been facing this whole situation before n therefore im tired of it..so i dont really care.. today im goin out with my dearest cousin..i'll be accompanying her to buy sch uni. after tt mayb headin to town..im lookin for belt, slippers..mayb clothes if it's goes with my budget..

-Sign Off @ 2:05 AM :)

-12/060/05-

Monday, June 13, 2005

wow...my body aches gettin worst...all thanxs to yesterday's ndp practice...
this is very da bad...frankly...im a slow runner but i was da front person n i have to run n lead da way to da next formation...datz very tough for me...
due to da too much runnin...today my legs are numb like hell... cant really walk properly..hahah...

oh well...im trying to stand da pain...
cant my parents understand me??
i quarrell with my mum juz bcoz i dont wanna go to da jemputan... wat da hell... seriously itz a big deal u knoe...

-Sign Off @ 5:41 AM :)

me n my sis

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

-My Younger Sis & Me-

-Sign Off @ 9:16 AM :)

i couldnt believe it!!

WHAT DA HELL!

im so closed to death dont u knoe tt!? this is all bcoz of my bro! thanxs to him!
told him if there are any starhub bill with my name on it...plz keep it a side...guess what? he forgot!! this is da first month of my new line and he already did this to me.. STUPID man! im pissed! i just got my scolding from my dad! lucky u knoe i managed to answer...if not im dead meat!

im not sure whether my story is logic enough.. but im pretty sure im save only today...so i better do somethin....if not.....

so many problems ar...all started from last month....can u believed tt...everytime i wanna be a gd gurl...there's always somethin coming thru my life...
oh god! plz save me....

i need to gain my father's trust...hhmmm..not only my father's but my mum's too... she's da one whom i had troubled with most of da time...for my dad..he's quite easy...

-Sign Off @ 8:42 AM :)