_my love for you;

-29/05/05-

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Yesterday:

1130am - pay last respect to my grandmother whom i visited yesterday..
0430pm - meet waty at jurong east
0630pm - meet kaka ( wat da F*ck! he was late again!)

this is da last time im waiting for him... no more!

-Sign Off @ 7:31 AM :)

-been bz lately-

Monday, May 30, 2005

Haiz...so many things happened at one go...i've not been havin enough rest..

From sat morning..got a phone call from my uncle sayin tt my cousin was involved in an accident...he was riding his bike n it collided with a car at teck whye area...
so...my mum n i rushed to da hospital..it was 2:30 am...damn i was tired coz i'll be having my ndp practice..

then on sat after practice...di n i rushed to ngee ann poly to watch piala khatulistiwa which is a dikir barat inter sch competition..
da guys there make a lot of noises...di n i was like laughin at their jokes.. didnt knoe whether they notice tt...hahaha...but oklah...we missed 7 schs but we managed to watch another 7 of da schs....

then...after tt..we went to da hospital to visit my grandmother...not really my granmother...she's my grandma's sister... she was really in a critical moment...da doc says she got no more hopes n tt they will need to stop da machine which help her to breathe..tt was really sad... i did drop a tear..after tt visit my cousin..he broke his neck n need to wear da neck brace.. after tt last patient...my another cousin..she been in n out from da hospital alot of times...doc says she have a kidney prob... she have difficulties to do her small business..poor little gurl...only sec one bt she look like pri sch kid..

see...in one day i have like 3 people to visit in one hospital...so tired..

-Sign Off @ 2:30 PM :)

-24/05/05-

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Woke up in da morning... went to bbdc with kak siti. we make a deal tt if one of us late she muz blanja ice-cream..ended up, she late n she took cab n pick me up.. hahaha...kakak2.

We practice n practice...after tt, we went to jurong east to play pool.. damn! i didnt draw any $$$ so i paiseh...hahaha...jas paid for da pool...lucky he got cash. silly me! then go long john silver to have our lunch. This time i pay...

Tomorrow meetin her again to have our practice again...

-Sign Off @ 2:10 PM :)

-\Take A Break/-

Monday, May 23, 2005

Itz been quite sometime i 've not been playin pool sey..so waty n i plan to meet n play pool...we played for an hour..then da rest of da time we spend time chattin together.. well its unfair to me coz...i went out like only for awhile n my mum already called askin me wat time im commin home...whereby my sis?? hai...i dont wanna talk about it..

**here in my post..is da only place where i let out everythin from my heart... i dont write no more...coz my mum read it.. so this is da only way to run away from tt to happen.. previously i was talkin abt my sis...well u might say...hey..this fieza ar..not ashamed to talk abt her sis's behaviour... well...if u ask me...no i dont...coz this is my fuckin post in my fuckin blog...i juz need someone to turn to and ask advices...who knoes any of u came out wif an idea to help me settle my sis's prob...which is part of my prob.
---------------------------Thanxs!--------------------------

-Sign Off @ 1:50 PM :)

[[OMG! Im so nervous...]]

Saturday, May 21, 2005

Today meeting him at bukit batok to accompany him buy a new handphone..
Well...kindda nervous... who doesnt..?

He was late coz he over slept..haiyo! nvm.. anyway im late too..
so we meet at about 5 instead of 3..

first buy his hp...he wanted to buy sony ercsson k700i but it was too expensive..so he decided to buy sony ericsson 300i. haha..now i knoe he is such a shy person..coz he ask me to ask da salesman about da phone..ofcoz i dont want. he's da one who is buying da phone not me..logic? after tt we go to bugis.. we had our dinner at BK...i couldnt eat much coz im not feelin well...i dont feel like eating at all...i vomitted twice today b4 meetin him..after tt he went to buy a shirt.. after tt i look at da time it was 5min to 9...damn! i was late.. told my mum i'll be back b4 her..lucky he's nice coz we took cab instead..he knoes im late..

well i was telling him why didnt he straight away go to work instead of goin back home then first...coz it was about 10 when he reaches home. da reason was.. he wouldnt want to leave me juz like tt so he send me home first. so touchin.. lolz..
i got a great time wif him...all da way we make jokes and such..

//abt my sis..it'll never end.. i dont knoe what went wrong wif her...da prob happened bcoz of either she, herself or others..
i found her diary and in april..she wrote sumthin abt her nearly being raped by 3 of her 'frenz'...im not sure they're her frenz coz frenz dont act like ANIMALS
it even stated tt they got touch her..if anythin were to happen i find them...i'll never let them go tt easy..

-Sign Off @ 2:35 PM :)

..Im Dead..

Thursday, May 19, 2005

im so dead...studied fmk but nothin went into my head. why??? how am i goin to do da paper tomorrow..? my head keep spinning and feel it would go BOOM! any moment..
have i not studied enough or hard?? damn i feel like dying...

this post is damn pathetic...i think i should stop here...

-Sign Off @ 6:43 AM :)

.:UNTITLED:.

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

"Untitled"

I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight

And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

-Sign Off @ 1:40 PM :)

[[IM NOT OKAY!!!]]

Sunday, May 15, 2005

Artist : My Chemical Romance
Album : Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge
Title : I'm Not Okay (I Promise)

If you wanted honesty thats all you had to say
I never wanna let you down or have you go
"It's better off this way
For all the dirty looks
the photographs your boyfriend took
remember when you broke your foot from jumping off the second floor?

[chorus]
I'm not ok
I'm not Ok
I'm not Ok....
you wear me out....

What will it take to show you that its not the life it seems
(I'm not ok)
I've told you time and time again
you sing the words but don't know what they mean
to be a joke and look
another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time
take a good hard

[chorus]

Forget about the dirty looks
the photographs your boyfriend took
You said you read me like a book
but the pages are all torn and frayed

I'm not ok
I'm not ok
I'm ok now (I'm ok now)
I wish you were really listening to me,
because i'm telling you the truth!
I realize, I'M OK! (trust me)

[chorus]

-Sign Off @ 1:28 PM :)

[(FRIDAY THE 13)]

Saturday, May 14, 2005

It's Friday da 13 and i guess in this modern life, nobody is afraid anymore...
For me, i was lucky...coz today i went to catch da House of Wax.
Cool rite!?
All thanxs to Liyz..i really appreciate her date with me today...hahaha

Well first thing in da morning, i got to redeem my free gifts at Funan... i went with my mum... We thought da printer tt we're goin to get was a bit smaller than ours but it turns out to be da same.. and ouh..it's damn heavy!
Imagine..i have to carry like 2 packets of rice.. At first i managed to but halfway thru...i felt it was getting heavier...and i can feel tt eyes were lookin at me...
So we decided to take a cab home...it's a pitty tt i have not get my licence..

Managed to get a rest before metting Liyz...
Back to da movie ya...i gave 5 out of 5 for this movie... damn it was awesome...i got scared and some of da part was sad.. i just wish i got my bantal busyuk with me...hehehe...so i can cover my face...oh ya...before tt, whenever u watch NC16 movie u have to let them see ur IC rite...n this chinese guy look at my IC like dont trust tt's me...hahaha...only those who have seen my IC knows what im talkin about.. *wink!
Well...da whole story was impressive...u should watch it!

-Sign Off @ 2:15 PM :)

[[What a Weekend!]]

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

on saturday as usual i have to go for ndp practice... fuh..da weather was damn hot and im MELTING!!!
i cant imagine we have to practice under da hot sun...die!!!
hahah...

sunday...i went to waty's place to do my hair...trim and wash... hai...i owe her a dozen..thanxs waty!! i really appreciate our friendship...
later on at 9pm..my dad left to Russia..as usual..workin...
poor dad...

today...im doin nothin...juz slacking at home doin nothin...
chatting with james for a while then...prepare dinner...
well nothin much really happened...
only tt rizal msg me..then i didnt how it ended up both of us like almost quarrelle..
but i managed to settle it...well...now, it's up to him whether he wanted to msg and call me still...it doesnt really matter...

-Sign Off @ 12:44 PM :)